It’s been awhile since my last blog. Unfortunately, I had a close death in my family. I’m actually still going through the “Emotions” of my niece’s death. She was a beautiful young woman who didn’t realize she had the world at her feet. Although I was 9 years older than her. She was my partner in crime, my ride or die, my protector, my advisor, but most importantly, she was my friend.
Basically, what I’d like to express in this article is, life is meant to be lived. I’ve recently had the honor, blessing, luck what ever you want to call it, of retiring early. At first it was actually a little difficult to fill up my days, and wondering if it was the right decision. Hummmm, we’ll, working 40 years, and doing double tasks during a few of those years, with decisions of going back to school several times. Yes! My body has taken a beating, I’m punching the time clock for the last time.
Having all this time on my hands, actually made me feel uninspired. I mean really, there’s so much Netflix you can watch! That’s just me. I’ve been wanting to plan a trip for myself, and do something adventurous, something I’ve never done before. Then, my niece’s death. I’m so dealing with the pain of my loss of her. But, I know she wouldn’t want me to be down, especially on her account. I’d know she’d feel that way.
As time passes for me, and I’m probably overthinking things, but I think life is just a bunch of decisions we make. We can decide to be uninspired, and waste away. Or, we can choose inspiration, and live to embrace an experience in life that will challenge you. Because, quite frankly it really makes me feel better to know or learn more of the person I am. I’ve always felt that when I would “go for it,” “go for the challenge!” (start my own business, which I’ve done, travel far away countries, which I have done, or go back to school, which I have done). Not being scared to do something that will build confidence. Well, it taught me to make better decisions for myself, because, life is just too short not to push yourself to a next level. I realize that I’m stronger than I think I am.
Although we go though life with struggles, I’m understanding that if I wait for a struggle to pass, time may not be on my side. And, then I would of missed out on a one in a lifetime experience, waiting for struggles to pass, emotions to pass, or even depression to pass.
I promised myself I was going to take better care of me when I retire. So I’ve started to introduce a little exercise in my life. Gonna write that cookbook I was supposed to start 6 months ago. And, I’ve “decided” to also do a healthy cookbook as well. I’d also like to book a trip to Thailand, what an adventure that would be.
Make life now!